A Buddhist In A Chaotic World

Although I was brought up in what seemed to be a cold and cruel world, I found my faith in Buddhism to be cleansing and wholly inspiring. As a child I was given no formal instruction on religion or spirituality for that matter. I found consolation among the vast genius of authors at the local library. I would spend hours alone as a child in the sections that were deemed for adults. While looking for different works of fiction I wandered into an aisle that changed my life. There I found a book by the Dalai Lama. It intrigued me, enough that I checked it out and took it home. Since that fateful day I have found many an inspiring moment in the words of the Buddha and enlightened Buddhists who have been published.

I grew up in the Tenderloin of San Francisco. A place that harbors resentment, bitterness, and fear. As a sensitive soul, I knew then that one day I would have to use my personal power to escape. As children we feel we have no choice but the life we are given. At age fourteen I took matters into my own hands. I shed the burden that was my abusive family, and found myself in foster care, a new, and equally abusive situation. There are days when I feel angry and hurt by the events that happened in the summer of 2007, and yet, my soul knows that the trauma freed me from a life of agony.

I took up residence with people I hold dear. My friends, who have long been more blood to me than water took me in. It wasn’t until November that I met my soulmate, Rachel. Rachel is in many ways like several of the previous females in my life. She is a strong, fiesty, and sometimes dominant woman. However she is also impeccably intelligent, spunky, and compassionate. Her heart beams with love for me, and she holds me safe in her loving arms. She speaks to me from a place of love instead of contempt, and touches me with her soul.

My life has come to a point where I am comfortable sharing my spirituality with another human being. A place where I am uplifted and am able to uplift. As an Indigo I know that there is no “regular” job that will suit my needs and passions. I plan to support myself and my new family through my capabilities with computers and art, as well as nurture other souls through Reiki. I am currently undergoing training to become a Reiki master. Some things are very much like the allegory of the cave. If you don’t know something exists, it is beyond your wildest dreams. After being introduced to Reiki, and the multitude of healing aspects it has, I now have a more enhanced dream to dream.

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